This picture has nothing to do with this post but it’s Christmas and it’s pretty.
I think I could have been BFF with Moses. We could have really bonded over our lack of eloquence.
Just because I’m overseas as a missionary, doesn’t mean I’m a professional preacher or teacher. In fact, I feel like the complete opposite. The fact that I’m considered a “missionary” makes me LOL because I stumble over my words a lot and lack confidence in my voice frequently. I question if what I’m saying even makes sense to those around me and compare myself to others more than I should.
BUT the cool thing is that I know I’m here for a reason and the words come out of my mouth the way they do for a reason.
I know that’s a typical “Christianese” answer, but it’s so true. On my own, I lack confidence. But when I share what’s in my heart from the boldness that is ONLY given to me through Jesus then I’m doing all He’s asked of me.
Of course I have to give myself this pep talk A LOT.
I tend to be like Moses and make excuses to God that I’m not good enough.
—> “Then Moses said to the LORD, “Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.” – Exodus 4:10 <—
MOSES I FEEL YA.
I literally feel like this all the time. But then God taps me on the shoulder and let’s me know I’m not alone.
I’ve been reading Bitter Sweet by Shauna Niquiest (I’m obsessed with her books please go read them NOW) and she has a couple really good quotes in one of her chapters.
“Don’t allow the story of God, the sacred, transforming story of what God does in a human heart to become flat and lifeless. If we choose silence, if we allow the gospel to be told only on Sundays, only in sanctuaries, only by approved and educated professionals, that life-changing story will lose its ability to change lives.”
“If you have been transformed by the grace of God, then you have within you all you need to write your manifesto, your poem, your song, your battle cry, your love letter to a beautiful and broken world.”
I’ve been praying recently that God will give me the eyes to see that I’m confident and bold. I can claim those truths because I have The Holy Spirit living inside of me.
He’s given me a story to share. It’s not fair if I keep it to myself.
If anyone out their feels like they lack eloquence, you are definitely NOT alone. Just know that you don’t. You’re eloquent. You’re eloquent because Jesus says you are. He gives you what you need when you need it. So let’s trust him in those moments of self doubt, deal? Cool.
Oh and Merry Christmas from Cambodia! Xx